cut the skin to the bone.

i'm scared. of what you'd ask? i'm scared of losing you.
i think my problem is, i don't know how to deal with my sadness.
and i don't know how to get mad. so what else am i suppose to do?
i had to turn off my ipod today because i couldn't even deal with the
feelings it gave me. then i realised how stupid that was and i turned it back on.
do you ever think of me?
i'm not sure i know how to do this blog thing anymore, i will try again tomorrow.
or at another convenient time.
i'm sorry.