I don't know why, but I just feel like I am in a really good place right now. I spent the day with my mom again. She had her hair appointment at 10 am this morning, bffoy did it! So we spent most of the day with bffoy and I was so happy. We all ate lunch together on bffoy's lunch break. We went to Bill and Ruth's. I forgot how seriously amazing that place was. I ordered a taco salad and then I scarfed the entire thing down. I wanted another one instantly after. Thinking about it still makes my mouth water.

I got a laptop today! I am so excited about it. No world wide web at my house until monday though. I am okay with that. The laptop was a late birthday/christmas present from my mom/dad. I will take care of my new baby.

I am really proud of myself for getting along with my mom the past two days. I just feel like that is good.

I really would like to meet someone new. Not new as in someone to date new. Not even necessarily new, it could be just someone in the fam. I just want someone to share my secrets with. I want to find someone that understands the person that I am. I just want to find somebody that gets it.

I really miss RyanBright. We text quite often but I just think that saying the things we text about out loud and with our own voices might make us feel better. Some form of therapy. Saying problems out loud might make them okay.

Today my mother mentioned stretch marks on my hips. Bam, realization. I am getting bigger than my body would like me too, oddly I am okay with this fact. I happen to be comfortable with the size and shape of my body. I have been thinking a lot about tattoos lately. I can't wait to get mine.

It is Tuesday. The second official day of springbreakage. Jessica comes home on Thursday & so does Jimmy. The rest of this week and weekend will kickbutt. I especially can not wait for Saturday. Flea market and an indoor game then most likely hanging out with the family. Saturday = Life.