my life lately, has just been one huge cycle of suckness. i wish i could even explain it. but i don't know if i can. i wake up, i go to school, i go to soccer, i come home, i mosey around, i go to bed, wake up, go to school, go to soccer, come home, mosey around, go to bed. and let's be honest, it really freaking sucks. i have no inspiration, i have no way of mixing things up. i miss what used to be and if i keep dwelling on that i am never going to move on with my life. i miss my bffoy, i miss the apartment, i miss chicken pot pie, i miss running to mcals with no shoes on and a longboard just because its right down the road, i miss james bond on the 64.

i want my tattoo, badbadbad. i started a tattoo fund jar! i cut a hole in the top of a old pickle jar and its got somewhere around four dollars in it. i however, have stopped making progress. but it is okay because i've got quite awhile to go.

school sucks, soccer sucks, but i am okay for now. & that is not a lie. i am okay.

after about ten minutes i just realized that i should edit this because i am not okay at all. everyday i feel like my life is nothing and i feel like it is getting nowhere. i don't know what to do. i have no idea. maybe i should print out some pictures of my cool friends and hang them up all over my room, maybe i should make a new friend, maybe i should apply myself.

the only question i have now is why?