it's been ages.

i am in desperate need of a adventure, a story book, a picnic basket, a open sky, a camera, and a friend.

i should be at the park today. but instead, i find myself sitting here. thinking of things. my mind is outside and not held captive in this little room. as fall sets in, i can't help but get excited. Sept-Nov > any other months of the year.

i am in the midst of making a book. and oh how i can't wait for it to be done.
maybe when i will find myself somewhere along the way. maybe i am just not going to look.
sometimes i want to type things i've previously said, that way i can show the blogging world, (well what little of a world i have, with whoever reads this) but then i just feel repetitive.

idk. it happened again the other night. i got the feeling that i just never want to leave here. i want to stay right here. right here in these moments forever. i was with Ashhey, driving around in her grandpa's stupid old truck, Lucky. hahah and yet again another country song was what did it. a country song came on the radio and my heart was bound in chains, here forever.

yu were a child crawling on your knees toward it; means the world to me.