As of Late.

things have changed. and they've changed alot. i don't feel much anymore honestly. and i'm sorry i know this post is WAY over due. its spring break so i will be everywhere. i am everywhere anyways. i don't know what the deal is. i don't know what to say. i don't know what to say to you. i don't know how to start a conversation with you anymore. it must be a relief to you, is all i can think. to know that you've gotten away. and i don't have energy to chase you. maybe its time for me to stop fighting, or maybe i stopped fighting a long time ago. i can't say. i've lost myself. and i don't know how i should feel about that. i need someone with my view. i try to fall back on you, but youre not there to catch me. and noone is anymore. so i'm just keeping up the balance as best i can. i'm thinking of Shelby as i write this. and the first thing i do when i get done is text her and tell her i FINALLY blogged. i can't stop listening to Kid Cudi and i'm going to go out and invest in his cd. things are changing. the trees tell me so. and i'm going to change. my heart will evolve soon. and thats all i can hope for.