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i took this from the notes i took in history today:

1. What are you afraid of?

to be completely honest, i don't know what i am afraid of. i am not afraid of the cliche answer. i am not scared too take a chance and get hurt, i am not scared of experiencing something new. nor am i terrified of being on my own. What exactly am i afraid of? i am afraid of fairy tales not being real. i am afraid of not finding someone who shares the same beliefs as me. i don't want the surface of my own wold to be broken by rules and judgments, i want it to be broke by someone diving in and trying to see it like i do. i am afraid that i won't come across someone in my life that will take my hand, and just let me be me.

2. What is holding yu back from exploring?

Myself. i am holding me back from exploring.

3. Could you be wrong about what is out there?

i could be, but i am not going to be. the possiblities to discover are endless. i am not looking for something somebody else has already seen. i want to know what lives under the rocks in my backyard. i want to see inside the mind of a flower. i am going to push the limits of what other people have found, i'm going to discover something more. something in the eyes of a child. my mind is a blank canvas, so therefore; i am not going to be wrong about anything i may find. but, i very well could be.

4. Why is exploring easier for some than others?

sometimes the act and want to explore is natural. i think it just depends on the person really. i think the reason that some people don't explore is because they would have to step out of their comfort zone to do so. maybe they are scared of what they might find?

5. What do you need to go and find out about that might change the rest of your life?

i need to find my roots, all the way through history. i need to find my wings. i need to dig up old memories and clean out my closet for new ones. i need to find beauty in things that other people disregard.