the silence isn't so bad.

i have a thousand things running through my brain. maybe i can pretend that everything is alright? that might work. i wish i could just flip my head inside out to let everyone see what is in there. that would be so much easier than trying to explain myself. i'm here for you. i'm strong for you. i'm fighting for you. i'm pulling for you. i'm praying for you. i've seem to of lost my train of thought. there is a ocean inside me, about two months worth of ocean. i don't know how much longer i can last. welcome back, i think i'll let you in again. i love you. its getting colder out, and the air is breathing easier. take a deep breath. don't lose your faith. everything will turn out how its suppose to be. i think i need a hand to hold. just a few days ago i was all ready and set to unleash my wrath upon this internet page. but now that i'm here, i don't know what or how too. i need to go swing, its easy, simple therapy. i must mention things are tumbling down. i need my sleeping bag and my best friend's floor, some cookie dough and a sad movie, my ipod and mario kart double dash, a trip to the garage and a stomach ache from laughing. thanks for everything. i can't tell which one of us needs the other more. you or me?

i got new curtain fabric for my room. it was meant for the windows but instead, it was destined to go on the closet. i'm so excited. i can't wait till i get this room finished!